Alpenglow State | Shelby Trevillian

5 sleeps until my cofacilitate this weekend.  Reflecting on my journey around this time last year heading off to my first experience of in person Rebirthing Breathwork Mastery. 

Being held the way I longed for as a child. So much allowing and agenda free support.  Coregulating and seeing so many profound synchronicities with my group.

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That same week, 19mo Bodhi had weaned and I thought maybe it was the last time I’d get to breastfeed.  On the plane, I felt activated leaving my family behind- the guilt and tremendous feels (is this the right thing?! ) was hitting me so hard I ordered a gin.  A pattern I’ve since resolved.  Then read the perfect thing in Sondra Ray’s “Ideal Birth” about how we we must not neglect our relationship with God as a parent, which would deprive your children of divine connection.  It is ok to leave your children now and then to improve your mind, for “if a mother neglects God and only thinks of her child, whatever she gives her child will be lifeless.”💥 This gave me deep comfort to remember.

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At the first retreat I was setting a lot of intentions on whether to have another baby, work/motherhood balance, schooling options for Ollie, processing a recent trip to USA after lockdowns, relationships, procrastinating, being the fool, articulating my ideas, following my bliss…

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Seems absolutely appropriate on the 1st day of my cofacilitate with @eleanorbreathe , will be the 120th day of my 3rd pregnancy. Yogi Bhajan taught that the soul enters the body on this day into the womb. On this day the mother must have the highest vibrational frequency to attract a similar energy field. I’ve chosen to be more open about my pregnancy, as this feels more authentic to share, yet hold more firm boundaries. I can’t think of a better thing than to hold space for rebirthing breathwork weekend. It’s as if this little spirit has been guiding me towards this specific day, as I booked it in before finding out I was pregnant. I’m simply in awe of the magic that happens when I leave no area of my life without intention. 🪄 ✨